The Last Word

**** This post was written a few weeks ago during a lull in our summer mayhem and then parked in Drafts. Life has calmed down somewhat, however, the 'disconnect' I speak about is still lurking about ... but we're working on it. ****

The other morning Frank came up behind me, nuzzling into my neck and ear ... 

"Just want to let you know I have plans for tonight .... plans for you"

"Okaaaay?"

"I'm not telling you anything ... I thought I'd give you a little something to think about during the day .... you can think about what I might do ... think about what you might want me to do ... "

My first thought .... ohhh sooo sexy! ... my second thought .... as long as we aren't both bagged by the end of the day ... we've got a lot on both of our to do lists and it is going to be another hot day ... 

He gave me a couple of reminders through the day as we passed each other ... a swat there, a whisper here, a wink there. However, as the day wore on, I found myself slipping into what I now call my 'disconnect' mode. I have talked with Frank a few times about this. It seems to be the more 'vanilla' activities that fill the day or that take us away from each other, the more I slip away from my submissive heart (although I still work hard at keeping my actions submissive); my libido drops to zero and I feel the ttwd world slip into surreality ... It's one of the reasons I give kudos to all the young people walking this ttwd road, those with kids and/or careers to tend to. Although I do think a ttwd relationship may have benefited us earlier on in our lives, with the way our lives used to be, I truly don't think I'd have been able to do it. 

After supper, we sat on the deck in the cool of the evening, reading, talking and catching up. I told Frank I was sorry but I didn't think tonight would be a go ... my head was just not in the right space. He didn't push. He accepted my explanation and said there would always be another time. 

Around 9 PM Frank headed inside to watch a bit of TV. I'd been on the hunt for a new book and decided to go again with a 'new to me' author, Ashe Barker (I think I might have found her through PK's Reading Room). She writes very hot and sexy D/s erotic fiction. This night I started the first of a three book series and by the time it was time to go in and head for bed my mood had definitely turned. Before going to bed, I found Frank in the living room. I piled onto his lap for a hug and gave him a long lingering kiss, wanting him but thinking I shouldn't be re-initiating what I'd already turned down. I climbed into bed with a hope that he'd soon follow.

When he got in bed awhile later, he pulled me into him, my back to his front, skimming his hands over my nipples. The man reads me like a book. He continued with soft, light breast play, my nipples now rock hard. 

"Mmmmm ... someone's a little excited" .... 

.... ya think?!

"Go get your headphones and put on your music" ... he said, slipping out of bed 

... Yeeeesss! ... a fist pump happens in my head ... I now know what's coming ... we haven't had a D/s play session since we began ttwd/DD .... let the games begin ...

... musicbyearphonesenigmablindfoldfacedownbondagesoftcuffswristsanklespurplefloggermagicmikewowbeltstrappaddlepurplefloggerbumupfuzeplugjohnnyvmagicmikepurplefloggerrolloverpurplefloggerbreastswahlamaaazing O!! ... 

... and yes he took his sweet time doing all that ... mmmhmmm! ...

After we were done, I draped myself around him and tucked my head under his chin and on his shoulder. Sated, tired and sleepy, I  asked ... 

"Was this your plan for tonight or did you wing it?" ... 

I felt him lift his head and look down at me ...

"Was it what you wanted or expected?" 

"No, I didn't have expectations"

"What do you mean?" ... Frank responded, sounding puzzled

"I didn't want to know ... just the anticipation of what you might do ... that's always the excitement for me" ... 

"So, was it good?" ... 

"It was amazing!" ... "

"Did you enjoy yourself?" ... 

"OMG, yes!"

"Good, now go to sleep" .... 

Ahhh, I see ... his plans were his plans and not mine to know ... and, as is usual these days, my Dominant man always has the Last Word ... 

💞

Thanks for dropping by! ... nj